A New Start

I realised this morning, that I'm best at blogging when I'm talking from the heart, so I thought I would just let my fingers type what my head was thinking without me paying any attention...

I haven't really been around the last few years with blogging.

At first I thought it was because the children were too old and no longer cute and we weren't really doing anything as a family so there was no point in sharing stories about what we were doing to inspire other people. Who wants to hear that we spent the majority of the weekend in separate rooms only coming together for the five minutes before our evening meals?

Then I blamed it on having a full time job and not having the time to blog. Yes, I may have a full time job but there are still several hours in the evening and at weekends where I could take time to sit and pour my thoughts out.

Then I blamed it on being lazy. At least I think I'm lazy, I might also have ASD or ADHD but I'm too lazy to find out... I mean I can barely keep my house clean and the laundry done without a lot of help from Flyfour, so do you really think I'm going to go and get test after test to find out?!

Really when I think back, I realise that I had just fallen out of love with what I was doing. It wasn't that I didn't have anything to say, I just didn't know how to frame it in a way that I thought other people would read.

And that's the problem.

I had forgotten that I didn't blog to start with because I wanted other people to read it, that was just an unexpected bonus. I didn't blog because I wanted PR companies to send me things or to pay me money to talk about things (although I did enjoy that!). I didn't blog because 

No, I blogged becaue I wanted to get my thoughts out of my head and because I wanted to remember the fun we had as a family.

Everything else came later.

So I'm going to take it back to what I think I did best, take it back to pouring out my thoughts and my words and not caring if it's read or not. Just knowing that I feel better for having got it all out.

I've actually made blogging and recording podcasts more one of my resolutions. Hopefully I'll start feeling more like me again too.